Lomo

I have always wanted to get a Lomo camera since I saw a feature of it on TV years ago.These cameras are cheap with the downside though that it uses film (some people would say otherwise). Just today I have downloaded an Ipod app giving lomo effects to the standard Ipod camera. Astig! Below are some samples of pictures I took(of myself).

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

A Brand New Start

Mother and Child

Mother and Child
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

I shot this statue of the Mother and Son at the Caleruega Church grounds in Batangas. The cloudy skies had made it possible to do a more dramatic composition of the subject.

In a Hurry

Radioactive Puppy hits 1000 on my birthday! yey!

Radioactive Puppy hits 1000 views on my birthday! Thank you guys for continuously reading all my online rants about life hahaha!

Sophie's Letter - Letters to Juliet

"'What' and ‘if’...
two words as nonthreatening as words come. 
But put them together side-by-side and they
have the power to haunt you for the
rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."


"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."


"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."

Deep Breathing

Deep Breathing
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

My friend Joanna Bernal while we were on vacation at the Laiya Beach in San Juan, Batangas.

Happy Birthday JO!!!!!!

Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Catwars

DarthCat: I am your father!!!
Luke Catwalker: Nooooooo!

Morning Coffee

Morning Coffee
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

My sister posing for me while she's having her breakfast.

34 Days to go before Christmas!

Winner!

Yeah! One of my photos won in Flickr group Larawang Pinoy's open challenge. It's not an Oscar, and there were only 3 submitted photos but still it feels good to win. :P

Here's the link:

http://flic.kr/p/7XME12

My first win came 5 months ago with this photo:

Tuyo... bow!

Tuyo
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

I don't eat tuyo, especially this kind. We call this "Hawot" in Batangas. My folks love eating this with Sinangag (fried rice) and hot Barako (robusta) coffee. I never learned to eat it but don't get me wrong I eat Danggit and dilis I just don't like the very foul smell of Hawot.

Three Month Rule

I was having coffee with a friend when the "Three Month Rule" was brought up. I have just coped up with a recent break up and is currently "looking but not yet engaging". Me and my ex broke up our 3 year relationship August 16 of  this year and next week will be the third month of me being single. The so called "three month rule" was popularized by John Lloyd and Bea's movie "One More Chance" which I honestly haven't seen but will be more than happy to watch it if somebody will lend me a DVD. The movie centers around the pains of a break up and apparently also showcases this rule where you cannot engage in any other relationship until the third month. Others say you still have a good chance to get back together within the 3 months of you being apart. Is this true? Should everyone abide to this rule? My honest opinion to this is maybe there is a little bit of logic behind it but I most certainly won't be confined by it. Right after the breakup I set my self a personal goal to not get into any relationship until next year. Why? Because I want to give my self some time to recuperate and rediscover my self.

I can say right now, I am okay. A week before the third month I can honestly say I am ready to face the world. Maybe generally it takes three months to recover from a breakup or heal a broken heart. Maybe it's true that it takes three whole months BUT should we base things on the months rather than what you really feel inside? Is it a certainty that any relationship born inside the three month break will not succeed or flourish? In contrast, is it for certain that you and your ex cannot be back together after the three months? Life is too complicated to confine in rules or irrationality. One thing I like about it is it gives people something to look forward to, that after 3 months everything will be okay. As for me I will celebrate this 3 months of being single... the only way I know how... drinking beer with my friends!

Bawal ang lampungan

I took this photo back in 2007 during our Visita Iglesia. I don't know if the sign is still there beside St Lorenzo Ruiz's statue in Cuenca, Batangas but the real message of this photo is clear. Respect our Church. And this goes out to everyone... don't make church grounds your personal motel room.

"Better" ~ Regina Spektor

"Better"
Regina Spektor

If I kiss you where it's sore 
If I kiss you where it's sore 
Will you feel better, better, better 
Will you feel anything at all 
Will you feel better, better, better 
Will you feel anything at all 

Born like sisters to this world 
In a town where blood ties are only blood 
If you never say your name out loud to anyone 
They can never ever call you by it 

If I kiss you where it's sore 
If I kiss you where it's sore 
Will you feel better, better, better 
Will you feel anything at all 
Will you feel better, better, better 
Will you feel anything at all 

You're getting sadder, getting sadder, getting sadder, getting sadder 
And I don't understand, and I don't understand 
But if I kiss you where it's sore 
If I kiss you where it's sore 
Will you feel better, better, better 
Will you feel anything at all 
Will you feel better, better, better 
Will you feel anything at all 
Anything at all 
Will you feel anything at all 
Anything at all 
Will you feel anything at all 
Anything at all... 

My Wish by Rascal Flatts

I wish you the best. You know who you are. :)

I love Chooks to Go!

Official Ka-Chooks!

When it first came out I thought it was the same roasted chicken like Andok's so I really didn't know what the fuzz was all about (and may I just say, the Chooks to go commercial is annoying.). I was wrong. It's a little bit sweet, it smells good, the chicken is so tender and best of all, No dripping chicken blood. It was all I can ask for in a roasted chicken with a little bit of a downside. Walang sauce! Even though their slogan says you can eat it without sauce it is still not the same.  You'll miss dipping your chicken into some sauce. We need to buy Mang Tomas as an alternative, no big deal.

The Devil

Fine! So I'm the family devil... Hahaha!
Halloween 2010. :)

53 days before the big day...

Since early September we've been adding, redesigning and rearranging the Christmas tree for this year. A lot has changed since then. :P

Gemini by Sponge Cola

Free!!!

It was the first time in a few months since I went out with somebody. To make it short, the night was crazy! I was really surprised of how things turned out. At home, I was still thinking of what happened that night and started to notice the big change. This RG has not been this way since a few years back. I missed this life, I miss doing crazy things. I miss making mistakes and not feeling guilty about it. Somehow a part of me misses RG who does not over analyze and over complicate things. Life itself is complicated and it is for us to make it less complicated. Right now, while I'm writing this blog and thinking about that night, with the craziness and some "risks" invoved, I just can't help but smile... an old friend is back in business. RG is back!!!

KungFu Panda

KungFu Panda
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

I love KungFu Panda! Can't wait for part 2!

Nap

Nap
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

This picture was one of the very first photos I took with my old DSC-N1 camera.

Why can't our lives be as simple as a cat's life? I guess the complexity of being a human also accounts to the complexity of our day to day lives including the stress that we need to handle. I guess our big man up there is fair enough, everything is just happening according to its own perspective.

The Man I was with You

Listen just hear me out
yes i know we agreed
when we break up we'd never give in to this need
to admit to each other
i miss you

listen just hear my cry
no i won't break my word
if i do say i miss you it would never be heard
let my heart whisper
all that it needs to

*how could you make me take a start?
then just leave me here hanging
can't even say how i'm feeling
how could you make them break my heart?
if i can't say that i miss you
let me say one last thing

#i miss him
and all the things he could do
yes/oh, i miss him
just as much as i miss you
oh, i miss him
i know you're wondering who
yes, i miss him
i miss the man i was with you
oh i would never be the same

listen just hear my voice
can you hear all the tears?
that i'm planning to hide
for the next thousand years
just as long as you know that
i love you

repeat *,#
except last line

how can a blind man find the light?
how can i find the kind of right?
how could you take away my sight?
how could you lose me in the night?
then you took away the heart in me
now i'm losing this fight
no i would never ever be the same

ooh.. ohh

oh, i miss him
and all the things he could do
yes, i miss him
just as much as i miss you
oh i miss him
i know by now you know who
yes, i miss him
i know by now you know who
i miss him
i miss the man i was with you

oh, i would never be the same

*a song by Jimmy Bondoc

Blind by Lifehouse

"Blind"

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go 

The Best Advise

Isn't it funny how we can give the best advices to other people but may not be able to apply the same things to our own lives? One of my colleagues is facing a really big problem with his family. I know how it feels. I've been in his situation several times and it's not easy. Over some bottles of beer, I started telling him my life story and how I was able to recover from it. To be honest, I'm really not sure if I had recovered trully. There are moments when I still get flashes of images I'd rather not remember anymore. There are moments when my heart begins to feel the same hurt I was feeling before. It's hard, it really is. Yesterday I felt the need to be there. Sometimes the burdens that we are carrying becomes lighter if we share it with somebody who understands the situation. After  a while I find my self talking about moving on, forgiveness... FAITH. I realized, I was actually making sense. More than me trying to help a friend, I guess subconsciously I was trying to encourage my self to stand up and rebuild my life. I guess it's true, nobody can fully help us in our struggles but our own selves.

1 Year Later

I was browsing through my Facebook notes when I found a note dated August 16, 2009. It was my goodbye letter for my ex. I was really having the worst time of my life back then and yet I was still in love with the person I gave my whole heart to. After a few months I accepted her back into my life again but I can't say that it has become the same happy relationship we had before. Exactly 1 year after posting the note we broke up again for the second time and this time it's for good. August 16, 2010 I regained my life, took control of it. Exactly 1 year after, I'm no longer held by the same chains that gave me suffering. No need to dwell on the past anymore but below I pasted the goodbye note I composed for her.


Goodbye

I've been dealing with this pain for quite a while,

But I still held on.

Because I Love You.

Now we reached the crossroad..

And came to this point where we have separate paths.

The road was bumpy, full of rocks and puddles,

but I held on.

Because you make me feel safe.

I never anticipated you'd push me down the cliff,

and break me into pieces.

But I forgive you,

because that's how love works.

But now after some moment alone

in this cold, dark mountain side

I noticed the wounds that you've given me.

I love you but I guess I need to love my self as well.

I need to heal my self.

Now you need to travel alone to your chosen destination.

But let my heart guide you through the way.

I know it's gonna be colder here on my side of the road,

But I know memories of us will make me warmer.

While writing this note, I'm crying like a river.

But as they say, when you're lost, just trace back the flow,

and you'll find home.

I love you so much, it's hard for me to let you go.

I'll miss you forever.

"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"

My friend Sheng posted this one...

I love the song. :)

"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why 

New Look!

Radioactive Puppy has a new sleek and clean design. It still has the wide, 3-part template but with a black background to keep it pretty much straight forward and a cool new header. Renovations will be done in the photo page in the following weeks and maybe adding more pages filled with photos and fun, informative articles (keeping the drama on the side lines). Enjoy!

She's out of my Life

[1st Verse]
She's Out Of My Life
She's Out Of My Life
And I Don't Know Whether To Laugh Or Cry
I Don't Know Whether To Live Or Die
And It Cuts Like A Knife
She's Out Of My Life

[2nd Verse]
It's Out Of My Hands
It's Out Of My Hands
To Think For Two Years She Was Here
And I Took Her For Granted I Was So Cavalier
Now The Way That It Stands
She's Out Of My Hands

[Bridge]
So I've Learned That Love's Not Possession
And I've Learned That Love Won't Wait
Now I've Learned That Love Needs Expression
But I Learned Too Late

[3rd Verse]
She's Out Of My Life
She's Out Of My Life
Damned Indecision And Cursed Pride
Kept My Love For Her Locked Deep Inside
And It Cuts Like A Knife
She's Out Of My Life