Chuck the Dog

Chuck the Dog, a photo by RageDevil on Flickr.

Goodbye Chucki!!! You will always be remembered.

Radioactive Puppy's New URL

Somebody told me that "bilot" is "vagina" in other dialects and that's why I think it is now time to move to my seconday URL: http://radioactivepuppy.blospot.com. :) When I created this site I created 2 URL's and this one was a backup just in case "bilot" does not pick up. I hope everyone will still show the same support as the other link. Thank you!!

Self Portrait

This is not a case of NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder), I just don't have anyone to model for me lately. :P

Heart Tree: Two Months After

After two months we visit the heart tree again. Original plan was to go to Enchanted Kingdom so I decided to leave my camera behind. I took this shot using an iPhone with some effects applied using PS.

Pretend

My friend Eric had me listen to this song a couple of weeks ago. He said this can be the perfect song for me and Ielle. It was the first time I heard the song but even before the song finished I knew it was perfect fit. :-)

Heart Shaped Tree

I accompanied Marielle to visit her dad's grave yesterday and this big heart shaped tree on top of a hill caught my attention.

May Sore Eyes ako!!!

I hate this!

Lomo

I have always wanted to get a Lomo camera since I saw a feature of it on TV years ago.These cameras are cheap with the downside though that it uses film (some people would say otherwise). Just today I have downloaded an Ipod app giving lomo effects to the standard Ipod camera. Astig! Below are some samples of pictures I took(of myself).

A Brand New Start

Radioactive Puppy hits 1000 on my birthday! yey!

Radioactive Puppy hits 1000 views on my birthday! Thank you guys for continuously reading all my online rants about life hahaha!

Sophie's Letter - Letters to Juliet

"'What' and ‘if’...
two words as nonthreatening as words come. 
But put them together side-by-side and they
have the power to haunt you for the
rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."


"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."


"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."

My Wish by Rascal Flatts

I wish you the best. You know who you are. :)

I love Chooks to Go!

Official Ka-Chooks!

When it first came out I thought it was the same roasted chicken like Andok's so I really didn't know what the fuzz was all about (and may I just say, the Chooks to go commercial is annoying.). I was wrong. It's a little bit sweet, it smells good, the chicken is so tender and best of all, No dripping chicken blood. It was all I can ask for in a roasted chicken with a little bit of a downside. Walang sauce! Even though their slogan says you can eat it without sauce it is still not the same.  You'll miss dipping your chicken into some sauce. We need to buy Mang Tomas as an alternative, no big deal.

The Devil

Fine! So I'm the family devil... Hahaha!
Halloween 2010. :)

53 days before the big day...

Since early September we've been adding, redesigning and rearranging the Christmas tree for this year. A lot has changed since then. :P

Nap

Nap
Originally uploaded by RageDevil

This picture was one of the very first photos I took with my old DSC-N1 camera.

Why can't our lives be as simple as a cat's life? I guess the complexity of being a human also accounts to the complexity of our day to day lives including the stress that we need to handle. I guess our big man up there is fair enough, everything is just happening according to its own perspective.

The Best Advise

Isn't it funny how we can give the best advices to other people but may not be able to apply the same things to our own lives? One of my colleagues is facing a really big problem with his family. I know how it feels. I've been in his situation several times and it's not easy. Over some bottles of beer, I started telling him my life story and how I was able to recover from it. To be honest, I'm really not sure if I had recovered trully. There are moments when I still get flashes of images I'd rather not remember anymore. There are moments when my heart begins to feel the same hurt I was feeling before. It's hard, it really is. Yesterday I felt the need to be there. Sometimes the burdens that we are carrying becomes lighter if we share it with somebody who understands the situation. After  a while I find my self talking about moving on, forgiveness... FAITH. I realized, I was actually making sense. More than me trying to help a friend, I guess subconsciously I was trying to encourage my self to stand up and rebuild my life. I guess it's true, nobody can fully help us in our struggles but our own selves.

1 Year Later

I was browsing through my Facebook notes when I found a note dated August 16, 2009. It was my goodbye letter for my ex. I was really having the worst time of my life back then and yet I was still in love with the person I gave my whole heart to. After a few months I accepted her back into my life again but I can't say that it has become the same happy relationship we had before. Exactly 1 year after posting the note we broke up again for the second time and this time it's for good. August 16, 2010 I regained my life, took control of it. Exactly 1 year after, I'm no longer held by the same chains that gave me suffering. No need to dwell on the past anymore but below I pasted the goodbye note I composed for her.


Goodbye

I've been dealing with this pain for quite a while,

But I still held on.

Because I Love You.

Now we reached the crossroad..

And came to this point where we have separate paths.

The road was bumpy, full of rocks and puddles,

but I held on.

Because you make me feel safe.

I never anticipated you'd push me down the cliff,

and break me into pieces.

But I forgive you,

because that's how love works.

But now after some moment alone

in this cold, dark mountain side

I noticed the wounds that you've given me.

I love you but I guess I need to love my self as well.

I need to heal my self.

Now you need to travel alone to your chosen destination.

But let my heart guide you through the way.

I know it's gonna be colder here on my side of the road,

But I know memories of us will make me warmer.

While writing this note, I'm crying like a river.

But as they say, when you're lost, just trace back the flow,

and you'll find home.

I love you so much, it's hard for me to let you go.

I'll miss you forever.

"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"

My friend Sheng posted this one...

I love the song. :)

"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why 

New Look!

Radioactive Puppy has a new sleek and clean design. It still has the wide, 3-part template but with a black background to keep it pretty much straight forward and a cool new header. Renovations will be done in the photo page in the following weeks and maybe adding more pages filled with photos and fun, informative articles (keeping the drama on the side lines). Enjoy!